Eating Habits

Soo…
Today I was contemplating on becoming a Vegetarian. At this point, I'm starting to think that I'm allergic to all types of meat. I remember when I was younger I had such an amazing digestive system. I could eat Chinese food, pizza, and ice cream in one sitting and feel fine the next day. And on top of that, I wouldn't gain any weight! Now I'm 15 lbs heavier (not saying it's a lot) and I feel miserable. I know that in the past, I have felt so much more happier weighing 100-105lbs. I know I know… seems vain, but to each his own. Being that I'm 5'3 inches tall I just feel more comfortable at that weight. My endo belly is less noticeable as well when I'm that size.
One thing that I like to do when I've been good with eating the right foods is rewarding myself with something that tastes great. Well… That's exactly what I did last week, I rewarded myself with 3 slices of pepperoni pizza because I didn't eat meat for a month and here's what happened…

My stomach swelled to the size of a basketball. I look like I'm about 5 months pregnant. It became soo uncomfortable that I had to lay on on my side the whole night. I'm sure you all know exactly what I'm talking about. When I look at this picture, it makes me sad because I work so hard to eat the right things and sometimes eating junk makes me happy. When I started college, I became an emotional eater. When I eat comfort foods… you know the kind… deep fried and smothered in chocolate :) I feel 1000 times happier and it makes me feel better, but my body responds negatively with bloating and pain.
So it had me thinking that maybe I should become a vegetarian. I thought about veganism, but I love dairy. Avoiding meat seems to be like a more realistic goal. I have fallen off the endo diet ban wagon soooo many times because it's just not realistic. At least for me it's not. Being on the endo diet feels like veganism and that's the hardest thing possible, especially when starting out because you're so used to eating certain things that when you stop it makes you feel soo unhappy… at least that's they way that I feel. I hope my Vegetarian journey is an easy one… I will keep you updated with what I eat :) 

Interesting

Hello Endo followers, 

I am so happy to back and feel much better. I haven't blogged in a while because I've been going through a lot with my health, which many of you understand. 

So.. I saw this picture on Facebook and I just had to post it here and talk about how I feel about it. Underneath the photo it said… "Endometriosis is known as an "invisible disease" because we look just fine on the outside and are experts at smiling. This is what's going on inside. The pic on the right is during a laparoscopy (a surgery us Endo Sisters have been through often more than once or twice to look around and remove scar tissue and separate organs again). This appears to be stage IV Endo. Fact: Even stage I Endo could hurt worse than than stage IV. Some women with late stages are not even aware they have Endo until they have some of kind of surgery and it is found." When I saw this photo, it made me happy because finally people were keeping it real about this disease. A lot of people talk about how they have endometriosis and then they took some bc or had a shot and are fine now. Okay, that's fine and dandy for you, but all women aren't the same. The fact is that SOME women who have stage IV endometriosis don't experience any pain, and SOME women who have stage can experience a lot of pain. When I was first diagnosed with endo I was stage I now I am stage II  and from the start of adolescence I had very bad, debilitating cramps. I still have bad cramps and they seem to get worse every month. Lately, I have been experiencing a lot of back pain. My surgical incision near my inguinal canal is larger than before so any attempts of waxing is very painful. It's very hard for me to wear jeans now even without the bloating because my right inguinal area is always swollen days after my period. 

I want people to walk away from this blog with a better understanding of what women like me go through every day. Having endo sisters is a big help to me because I don't feel alone in a world full of judgmental people. 

I always try to wake up early so that I can acclimate myself to it. but halfway through the day I get so tired, I'm sure you all can relate. People make judgements about me and say that I'm lazy, but if they were going through the same pain that I did, they would feel like they ran a marathon too. Also when I have mood swings, people make judgements that I'm bipolar when it's just the fact that my hormones are out of wack. The more that I talk to my endo sisters, and the more that I blog I feel better and better.