Laparoscopic Surgery

Hello,
 I am going in for my third laparoscopic surgery on Tuesday September 17th. I will be making a youtube video to document my surgery. This will be my 3rd surgery within 6 years. This past month was extremely painful and I experienced a lot of bleeding which is abnormal for me at least. All I could think about was how I was feeling, the pain and bloating that I was experiencing, and the massive blood loss. I was trying to get opinions from my co-workers at the hospital and one of them told me "well you're not that bad off, just take a look at some of the patients on the floor". My first instinct was to get mad at him for saying that, but then I thought about it and I talk a lot about myself and my condition instead of branching out and helping others through my pain. I want to help people, especially since my goal is to become an OB/GYN specializing in Endometriosis.
Working around so many sick people, I feel guilty and selfish at times for thinking negatively about my condition when people are sitting in beds with cancer or heart attacks. Some times it's hard not to be a little selfish when you think that the pain is only happening to you and that's normal. But sometimes I get so absorbed in my symptoms that it's hard for me not to think negatively. My goal is to think more positive about the situation that I am in. Instead of saying "Why me? Why am I in all of this pain?" I can say "How can I help someone else with their pain?"I always try my hardest not to judge other people because I don't know what their going through in their lives. Going into this surgery on Tuesday I am a little apprehensive though I know it is for the best. I will let you guys know how it went. Have an awesome day!!